"You have survived so much loss, so much more than you deserve, but you have survived. And I know it has damaged you and you are lost. But you are not defeated. But I am defeated in your presence. Just like I have always been. No more, for either one of us, Abigail. No more.”
NAME: Christopher Dean ROLE: Ice Dancing partner/friend/occasional love interest/etc.of Abigail Phelps HE MET ABBY... In Vienna, just prior to the 1979 World Figure Skating Championships. (I've Loved These Days, Book 1 in The Abigail Phelps Series Chapter 3 - "You Look So Good To Me") FIRST IMPRESSIONS: "I was staring. Possibly drooling? I don’t know. I was so into him, right away. He looked young and innocent, though at 20 he was three years older than I, and he had just enough of a mischievous gleam in his eye that I doubted he was as innocent as he appeared. More than thirty years later, I still remember exactly how he looked, what he was wearing, how he smelled." I've Loved These Days, Chapter 3 "You Look So Good To Me" ROMANTIC CONNECTION: Where to begin... Chris and Abby almost got together countless times, but the timing was never quite right. Until it was. Maybe... | IN CHRIS'S WORDS: “I’m so tired of you being everything. When you aren’t in my life, I’m better by the world’s standards. I function, which is something I can’t seem to do when you’re around. But it’s empty. Completely empty. Every emotion I feel and every action I take is half-hearted at best. All I do is function. I don’t laugh. I don’t live. I don’t love. And I’m tired of it, Abigail. I have tried to purge you from my heart time and again, and it’s useless. My heart only exists to love you.” I've Loved These Days, Chapter 32 "Shameless" |
IN ABBY'S WORDS: "'I’ve lost Sergei, and I’ve lost John, and the pain has been so intense that I didn’t know if I could survive it. But if I ever lost you, I know now that I wouldn’t want to survive it, Chris. I love you, and I want you, and I need you. So much more than I ever knew.'”
Two Thousand Years, Chapter 3 "New York State of Mind"
Two Thousand Years, Chapter 3 "New York State of Mind"