I spent my entire life very proudly not caring about football. I didn't understand it, and I didn't want to. Nothing about it interested me at all. But this year, something changed. I didn't expect it, and I didn't welcome it. I've competed in fantasy football for years with my work league, but that was totally unrelated to football itself. You can compete in fantasy football, as I did, and be pretty decent at it, as I am, without understanding football. It helps to understand statistics, and a strong competitive nature is practically a must. And by golly, I'm competitive. Painfully so. I hate to lose, and I don't do it well. But do you know what is at the core for most truly competitive people, myself included? We don't hate to lose because of how it makes us look, or because we don't reap the riches of whatever accompanies winning. We hate to lose because we just care so very much.
This year, I accidentally fell in love with football - specifically Peyton Manning and the Denver Broncos. I live in Colorado, but that isn't why I love the Broncos. After all, I have lived in Colorado for 13 years. I never cared about the Broncos before. But this year I fell in love with watching the Broncos think their way to being the best team in the NFL. I loved watching Peyton Manning refuse to give up. His career should have been over a couple years ago, and yet this year he shattered every record known to man.
Peyton Manning's legacy was already sealed before this year. He was already going to go down in history as one of the best of all time. This season is about more than how it makes him look. Peyton Manning is a millionaire many, many times over. This season is about more than reaping the riches which accompany winning. Peyton Manning is a true competitor. Peyton Manning cares so very much.
Right now, my Broncos are losing the Super Bowl. Very badly. Very, very badly. And right now, I can't help but wish I still didn't like football. I could be spared the sadness and disappointment if were just watching for the commercials, or better yet, anxiously awaiting the end of the game so that I could watch the post-game episode of New Girl. But no. I care.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't published Abigail Phelps. I want it to be a bestseller, and that just hasn't happened yet. If I had never put it out there, I couldn't feel that disappointment. But I am a published author, and just like the hours spent cheering for the Broncos this year, that can't be taken away. I may never have a bestseller, and the Broncos aren't going to win this Super Bowl. But they're not giving up until the end, and neither am I.
Because I just care so very much.
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